Ok since I can’t keep to a new year resolution.. I’ll try making a NEW MONTH resolution for august..

Start doing n maintain daily crunches!

Study at least 2hrs a day

Read at least 1 watever book

Go library for half a day at least once

Blade/Jog/Swim/Rock-Climb twice a week

Only 5.. I’ll do a weekly review to c how much I’ve achieve..

think i belong to the telegram era STOP can't seems to write in full sentence STOP its raining tonite!

been out all day today.. haven had much time to continue with my part 2 of the story, anyway when i'm not at home i dun need to complaint abt the things happening at home.. internet access time has long been exceeded too.. so mayb i'll do it next mth.. finally went to the lib to borrow a bk to work on this site so that i can enable comments n stuff up rather than only a simple template thing which is so limited..

Story of Me, My House & My Family (Part 1)
i dun even feel at ease in my hse.. everybody thinks i'm a rich kid n lives in a big, nice hse.. but nobody knows that i'm running out of cash 'coz i've been surviving on my savings for more than half a year.. nobody knows that its just a big bloody mess everywhere.. its more like a hse in the kampong..

my dad had a big pond to rear his fish (ok.. not normal fishes, they are expensive japanese koi - and again people think we're rich) but nobody knows that there are some worms or stuffs in the pond which causes them to die, fall sick, jump out of the pond n got crash by my dad's car.. then my dad will just buy more n replace them.. ya u guess it.. i dun think he's much of a fish lover..

my mum likes to have organic stuff.. so she plant vegetables, fruit trees and even rear chicken for their eggs.. but nobody knows to make it real organic, she doesn't use those fertilisers sold in the market, she uses real natural ones which is free too..

to be continued.. .. i'm gonna get out of this messy place now.. stay tuned for PART 2

there is nothing in my life that i look forward to.. .. i need another job..

ahhhh... i hate it!! i feel so robbed!!.. robbed of my eyebrows.. they just plucked it w/o my consent.. i said JUST THE STRAY ONES n they told mi all those r stray ones... WAT R THEY THINKING MANN!!!! ahhh.... now i've aviod all mirrors.. so pissed with those pple (actually only 1 person) but yet i can't do anything.. to them or to my eyebrows.. sob.. sob.. i knew it.. couldn't trust them at all.. AHHHHHAHHH!!!!!!!!!!! how am i gonna face the world..

i can't wait! i must blog this now.. I'VE GOT A JOB! just got a call from the doctor-in-charge.. lazy me!! i almost put off my ringing mobile phone as a stoopid alarm ringing.. .. .. but now i dunno if i its a good choice to take up the job.. it's totally unrelated to my studies (n nope! it's not a very high-paying job.. this falls into the category of knowledge-gained-in-the-process job) i'm doing part time..working only 3 hrs a day but i have to travel an hr to and fro. so now i get myself stuck with a fixed timing from 1700 to 2200.. i dunno if i can find another related-to-studies job or shd i just put my time into studies now.. and be a good clinic asst. =)

sigh!!! *BIG* SIGH! life is still contradicting.. and what can be worse.. i am SELF-contradicting too!.. just to quote a few examples.. i'm a loner who like to have lots of friends.. i feel that one should not work for money but for the other things like your interest or the knowledge gained in the process but i really want a job that can earn lots of money to buy my own car.. n... wat else..??? (i hate it.. whenever i sit in front of this screen i dun seems to remember what i want to blog) what do i really want??? why can't i just make up my mind???

Did something dumb n boring again today. (yesterday actually.. why can't i ever blog on time!.. all my entries have to be in the wee hours of the morning..) I went all the way to JB with 2 frens (supposingly to shop n have a nice, cheap seafood dinner..) but came home empty-handed and the dinner wasn't that cheap afterall 'cause we are always being ripped-off as we had the words foreigners written on our faces! Well, n the food wasn't that great.. but well i guess its still better than me staying at home all day.. getting fat..

oh boy! toking abt fat.. i've been bumming for too long n i've long gain back the 5kg i lost last 2 years n its going way beyond.. but i just can't stop myself snacking 'coz i'm too bored.. better get something to do fast.. argh.!!

Quoting my life!

01~ The poorest man is not without a cent, but without a dream.

02~ It is not because things are difficult that we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that they are difficult. --Seneca

03~ It’s not who you are that holds you back, it’s who you think you’re not.

04~ A ship in harbour is safe, but that is not what ships are built for. --William Shedd

05~ 99% of the failures come from people who have the habit of making excuses. --George Washington Carver

06~ The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do. --Walter Bagehet

07~ Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow; it empties today of its strength.

08~ Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new. --Albert Einstein

09~ People who are sensible about love are incapable of it. --Douglas Yates

10~ You can give without loving, but you cannot love without giving. --Amy Carmichael

11~ True friendship comes when silence between two people is comfortable. --David Tyson Gentry

12~ The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it.

i need to work.. i need a job.. i need money.. i need to stop bumming.. i need to get my studies on track.. i need to do something constructive.. i need to stop pigging out.. i need to exercise more.. i need to get progressive in my life.. i need confidence.. I NEED A LIFE!!!!!

had a real big dinner.. bloated.. 15 pple at e table but as usual only a few interacted among themselves.. not all together.. crystal jade restaurant at ngee ann city (for e first time i feel e wow-ness of a posh restaurant.. becoz i'm damn poor now?? or becoz i haven been to 1 for some time??) .. i dunno why but going there still bring back memories.. indulge myself in white wine.. only abt 4 glasses but still feel sad.. time n again i tried to move on becoz i noe that there is no way i can turn back.. but no.. its not so easy.. sigh..

just came back from a short wkend trip to KL.. really feels good to getaway for a while although i have to keep worrying abt spending too much money.. sigh but worries, emptiness n lostness just start coming back so quickly before i even have time to think abt my trip.. worst still wasted my monday sleeping.. overslept.. rush out.. suppose to swim but started raining.. so bath.. had a hotdog bread.. came home.. n that's it sigh.. n i'm falling behind class again n i've yet to touch my notes

i love quizzes.. did all that i can find.. they are all quite true especially the Seven Deadly Sin one.. =P

i'm a hamster.

i'm a foundation.

You're SLOTH! You're extremely lazy. There's just no other way to put it! Your loner attitude gets in the way of your social life sometimes. You're represented by the color aqua.

i'm so sick of life.. i feel so isolated.. can't interact with anybody.. i just wanna stay at home.. in my room..

there's so much things in life that doesn't make sense..
>> when i was working, i have lotsa $ in my bank.. i dun have n i can't find anything to buy.. anyway i dun have the time to need anything BUT now when i'm jobless n studying n on the verge of closing my bank acc.. that's so much things that i need to buy.. clothes.. shoes.. sandals.. all the basic stuff i'm lacking.. i have so much time that whatever i do needs $.. n everything have to start falling apart now.. n i have no $ to replace them...

>> i need to get a tan coz i'm fat n tanning shd make mi look thinner BUT i'm fat n i can't wear a bikini to tan BUT if i dun tan how can i look thin to wear a bikini?

>> i bought some ginko pills(memory booster stuff) to improve my memory BUT i need memory booster to improve my memory so that i can rem to take my pills BUT if i can't rem to take my mem booster pills how can i improve my mem?

>> ... ... i can't rem...

that is why we have often been asked chicken-come-first-or-egg-come-first qns (i called tis the chicken-n-egg theory), basically your whole life is based on this theory.. so if u r able to figure out which 1 comes first.. u'll b probably able to figure wat life is all abt..

i hate myself.. i'm so dumb.. i'm an IT student n it took mi so long to fig out how to post tis blog.. can't even create my own blog when i need 1 to complaint abt my sucky life.. if u can read tis means tt i'm still not too much of a computer idiot..