HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY to all !!!
shit.. suddenly down with a VERY BAD sore throat.. n my nose just starts dripping without warning.. n my right eye has something n the medicine for it is just making my vision blurred.. so can't type documents for my dad AGAIN!! i'm suppose to finish it last weekend n i keep delaying it.. but i FINALLY finished painting his shop for him.. (with some help hee.. i noe i'm just not gonna b able to finish it in few days if i do it alone.. ) n that'll stop them from bugging me for a while.. yeah!! now its time to get paid! hee..

no time! no time! no time!
i'm still doing nothing.. n i still dun have time.. haven sign up for exams.. n i really wanna back out now.. I DUNNO NUTS.. or izzit I ONLY NOE NUTS.. which just means i dunno anything, shd i?!?! haven watched the tv for a long time.. haven been lasing at home much for a long time.. tabletop has long vanished.. only half the floor area left.. dust can b picked up in pieces.. mum is gonna to boycot mi. dun wanna wash my polo-T for mi.. i wanna wear it. but i'm still to lazy to go wash it.. argh.. i'm in a mess.. endless loads of work my dad is throwing at mi because he thinks i'm too free.. coz i've been hanging out late frequently.. but i just dun have time.. n i need TIME to start studying..

i noe where some of my time go.. wasting my time n money on some stoopid movie - REIGN OF FIRE.. just watch it w some frens n i dun even noe wat's happening.. it so boring that i keep falling asleep in the cinema..

i need TIME!!!!!!

monitor dying?!
puhh.. my monitor is flickering AGAIN.. tink its gonna die soon.. n my bro CAN'T C the diff!!?? so izzit mi.. him.. or the monitor?!!? .. just dun die so soon.. but i think it abt time too.. 4th yr.. sigh.. time to check out new comp too..

Male Ego!
spent the whole of yesterday at a swimming pool n had an interesting discovery.. hehe..

i was observing this grp of small kids (abt 8ppl, tink betn 6-8yrs old..) having their swimming lessons.. hoping to learn some proper swimming techniques.. n they were suppose to run ard the pool to warm-up.. at first was tis thin indian boy leading.. wasn't paying much attention to them till when they at their 2nd round n my fren said.. "c.. when e girl overtake him he wld speed up n run faster to overtake her" (tis indian boy was already tired n just walking while the girl was also half running n walking trying to catch up..) then i was like.. ya .. i think so.. man always have tis big ego that they can't lose to girls.. so we just wait n c.. then it happen.. exactly wat we tot.. hahah.. so i told my guy fren.. its a male ego thing.. he suggested that mayb coz he an indian or coz he's in front of the whole group all the while.. that's y..

ok.. mayb.. then we shd observe other boys.. so the next came an innocent chubby looking chinese boy.. then i tot.. mayb tis guy is a bit bo chap n a little slack.. n he too was tired n walking already.. then there's also another girl behing her who speeds up n tried to overtake him.. n our little fren.. on hearing her footsteps.. quickly picked up speed n run not allowing the to ever overtake him.. (although u can c that he's already tired..) then slow down again when he sense that the girl behind slowed down(of coz the little girl is tired too.. all she can do is just sprint abit.. n then walk.. she did it for like 3 times.. and the chinese boy did his best all 3 times not allowing the girl to overtake him at all..)

it was really funny hahaha.. .. n it did proved my theory.. its a MALE EGO thing.. too bad there's only 2 boys in e whole grp.. if not my theory wld have been more convincing.. haha..

i've always wondered when n where man get their ego.. now i noe.. its all in the blood mann.. they'r born with it.. no need to teach.. no need to learn.. its just something in all man.. n i guess that's y its something u can't chg in them.. haha..

70+ days left
met up w my cozmates yesterday for lunch.. hmm.. all 3 of us r stuck with the coz mann.. guess that's 1 of the reasons y we clicked.. haha.. sigh.. i gotta buck up mann.. i dun noe wat had been happening since i finish my last exam paper.. let's c.. that is on 17th June.. wow.. that's like 3mths.. n i dun noe wat had been happening since then.. haven been studying, haven been working.. haven been working out.. din even watch TV.. where did all my time go mann.. i need to start doing something sigh.. now i have to start preparing for my exams again.. only 70+ days to go..(i haven been counting. just that the lecturer keep reminding us.. its either 70+ days to prepare or u can use another HALF yr to do so! sucky.. ) n as usual.. i dun noe wat the hell is happening in class.. y do i keep going thru tis process again n again.. i need to change.. but i hate to change.. argh.. i'll just go thru the process again.. puhh.. everything SUX!!

aahhh...... FUCk!.. now its getting to my brains.. my brain is empty.. .. anyway it has been empty for so long.. so wat's the diff now.. just dun fell like doing anything.. can't really blog too.. y do pple keep blog mann... izn't a diary suppose to b a secret thing.. now u tell pple everything.. but then u can't blog coz u dun think u wan pple to noe abt ur stuf.. aargghhh.. i wanna do something.. but i can only do nothing.. just nothing.. n i dun even feel like doing nothing now.. i dun wanna do somethinig also.. i DUNNO wat i wan!!!!!

i dun wanna sleep yet..
i wanna do something .. i but i now i haven do.. wat mann. i'm just not co-ordinating.. i wanna do work.. i need to send sms.. i'm toking on the phone.. anyway i dunno wat i'm writing, thinking, toking.. ahh.. i need to send sms.. wat m i doing.. ..

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i dunno wat i'm doing.. i dunno wat i wanna do.. i dunno wat i need to do.. i dunno wat i'm suppose to do.. i dunno wat i can do.. i dunno wat i'm gonna to do.. i just dunno wat the hell is happening in my life.. wait.. wait.. i think i noe something.. i noe. for sure that i dunno wat.. *fallen asleep w fingers still on the keyboard* is happening to mi.. n y am a feeling detached n distanced from everything..*yawn*

*yawn*
i need sleep .. but i need to finish up some typing.. but my monitor is flickering away.. how can i work w/o looking at my monitor.. wo bu xin le.. yawning till i have teary eyes..

all wasted..
can't believe i spent $400 to go class to just copy notes blindly, then drop the exam, last sem.. spent another $300 to copy the same notes again this sem.. spent another $200 to join a halfway class which is more then halfway done with all the syallbus.. arrghh.. i cld have use tis $900 for so much things..

lecturers ought to b send back to sch to learn proper presentation.. how do u expect students to absorb in 4 straight hrs of lecture using a dull n monotonous voice thruout..
well after my 4hr lect.. i learned that WRIGLEY'S chewing gum can turn into liquid gum after 3hrs of chewing.. n my lips was so sticky with all the gum.. shit mann..

What's happening!??!!?
finally met up with my fren n return him his phone.. lost my phone n stuff abt 10days back.. then 1 wk later, fren lost his money n phone too.. it seems to b stolen by ppl there.. the cleaning staffs?? thief like to empty wallets of money n all coins.. take cosmatic stuffs like foundation, lip gloss, perfume.. n will return u all ur stuffs.. hmm.. so if u r going mdm wong.. take care of ur stuffs.. esp on thur nites..

so my fren asked "what have u been doing.." n i can't remember.. i just dunno wat i've been doing since the day i went mdm wong till today.. well all i noe was.. drinking.. staying out late.. getting nags n scolding from my parents.. ignoring their incessant calls.. oh ya.. last nite(sunday nite), i clocked another 16 missed calls n i actually did ans 3 calls.. all fr my dad.. arrgghh.. so i actually had to check my palm to remind myself wat i did the last 10days.. sigh..

why do i feel like i'm more distant with my family now after all the craps that happened last few days.. sigh.. was so sian i started pigging out the min i reached home.. wat i just ate:

• a bowl of vege soup


• fried chicken breast n wing


• a curry puff


• a pear


• some leftover Ruffles potato chips


• 3 prunes


• some biscults


• next is a bowl of homemade sea coconut dessert

practically ate all the stuff that i cld find.. i'm so sleepy now but i damn bloated.. sigh.. this is just another sign that i'll b getting fat.. ok now i regretted.. but it really does help emotionally..
at least i swam today n i'm gonna to swim again tomo.. sigh.. blame it on myself that i did so much fats-loading b4 i even started burning the old ones..

ARE YOU A REASON, A SEASON, OR A LIFETIME?
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON… It is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

Then people come into your life for a SEASON. Because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

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sigh.. sometimes it just happens n u have no ctrl over it..

Improve Your Vocab.. (Longman):

• clairvoyant - someone who says they can see wat will happen in e future

AUG Resolution Review
arrgghh.. time flies.. aug is over..

• i haven do my cruches yet 'cept on the first day..


• managed to go stoned at the lib twice i think.. then have to waste $ renewing the bks.. stoopid system..


• read half of 3 bks.. so that adds up to 1.5bks.. hehe..


• did managed some blading n swimming at the beginning of the mth.. till my ankle was sprained.. so wasn't my fault..


• studying is just shitty.. din even touch my notes.. ..(wait a min.. where the hell is my notes now.. !!?) not to tok abt studying 2hrs a day..

ok.. that's it.. no more resolutions.. just wasting my time.. sigh..

ahhhh.... my ankle still hurts..(i'm not whining abt the pain or wat.. but i need to start my jogging/balding/swimming routine.. arrgghh.. my stoopid weighing machine must b quite problematic.. haha.. ) think e sin sei r all posers.. its just a slight sprain.. y izzit still swollen after 10days!