Counting Down?!
well cldn't get advance tix anymore today.. have to get it at the door.. more ex.. exclude sentosa admission somemore.. but i'm going anyway.. blahh.. y?! i also dunno.. beats staying at home being nagged by parents.. i guess..

arghh.. just cldn't find my tings when i need it.. wait i think i noe where.. YES!! found it.. *grin* mayb i shd have just stayed home to pack my stuffs.. hehe..

New Year Resolution
shd i have one?! do i need one?! will it ever gonna work?! arghh.. i'll just list some TO DO stuffs if i have the time..

The Nation's Countdown 2003
shd i go to the Sentosa countdown..?! squeeze.. sweat.. yell.. get pushed ard n get stampede?! (they r expecting more than 10k pple!) guess i wld have been excited if its a few yrs back.. tink too old for parties now.. just wanna go somewhere quiet or just cuddle in bed at home if nobody's gonna disturb me.. wat2do..?! wat2do..?!

The Diff..
now then i noe the diff.. BRAID is american english n PLAIT is british english.. simple as that.. duhh.. y can't they just have an ISO..

plaits out!
took my braids out.. (it took like.. how long was that?! abt 15 minutes or more.. i think.. anyway got a stiff neck from the process..) drop damn lotsa of hair.. oh.. had a total of 63 strands of plaits (counted it when i was in the train fr bangkok to hat yai -- too bored then..) had my 1st comb of hair in like 16days! hee.. got wash lah.. but still damn itchy.. need a thorough scalp scrub b4 i get sabu (some insect thingy)!! now i got the jin mao shi wang look.. (direct translation-golden mane lion king)

ADSL
Broadband connection is finally up!! *super duper wide grin* but no time to use it also..

Holi trip again!
no yr end party mood again.. tis yr is just weird.. so much holi trips/getaways yet least feel.. plan for a subsequent KL trip at e end of the yr had fall thru.. now is just work work work..

another plan for china trip at the end of the lunar calendar yr.. nvr did i imagine i'll ever do a ChineseNewYear "Runaway" thingy.. (had been going to my grandparents' hse in m'sia for CNY all my life.. nvr ever spent it in s'pore b4 even).. shit.. wait a minute! .. that's for married adults.. now then it strike mi.. there goes my ang paos!!?? arghh.. that's a whole lot of money mann..

well its been 14yrs since the whole family last travelled together.. guess its abt time.. i jus hope it doesn't become a pissful trip (which always happens to my family outing..) leaves n replacements needed now..!! n permission granted fr mum to skip classes.. (not as if i needed them in the first place..) hee.. still need to find pple to record lecture for mi.. holi tours just became a chore when u have too much commitments.. .. but yeye.. love the plane!.. shit! still no cam to take cloud photos.. sign.. mayb i shd just grab my digi cam b4 going?! hhmm..

Just a thought..
always been thinking..
still thinking.. ..

always think its true..
still think its true.. ..

this applies to old married couples.. parents etc..

k.. The Thought..
"If they still have sex.. they'll always have a way to solve their differences.. If they dun.. that's almost the end of the marriage.. typical chinese thinking - staying together BECAUSE of the kids.."

*sigh³*

Merry Christmas!
work on eve.. had sorta a xmas dina.. alone!? =) but nice.. turkey.. ham.. vege soup.. yum yum.. went church.. nope not christian.. just hang out coz nothing to do.. midnight mass.. hang out.. dim sum supper at geylang.. not bad.. but service was fucked up.. hang out.. came home.. merry merry christmas.. totally no christmasy feeling tis yr.. no prezzie.. no need to spend money on prezzie also.. still have 3 logcake lying in my fridge.. all free.. hee.. think tomo i'm gonna have logcake breakfast lunch dina..

Some old logs:-
some stuff tt i forgot to post/too lazy to post the last few days

-Unsolved Mystery(15/12/2002)
happened while i was in bangkok.. woke up late.. rushing to pack bag.. have to check out.. fren can't find glasses.. i swear i din touch it.. found inside stinky shoe later.. fren din put in there.. only 2 of us in the room.. room locked all nite.. only reason i can think of is sleepwalking.. but its still weird.. errie too.. *goose pimples*

-Just Dina(21/12/2002)
mum wasn't home.. nobody cook dina.. everybody went out to eat.. initial plan was east coast hawker centre.. coz it was a sat.. decided not to go bang with crowds.. went some restaurant.. vege, fish, deer meat, lobster, fish maw soup, gui ling gao(dessert).. as i was eating.. suddenly feel really bad.. how many can actually have the luxury of all these as a nomal day dina (avg $20 per pax).. thou not an everyday affair.. its still a luxury.. still think that all these comes with a price that only those in the shoes will noe.. feel bad yet.. hate it!? arghh.. dunno just mixed feelings..

-Rich n Famous Lifestyle(22/12/2002)
toking abt rich lifestyle.. met a real life person who doesn't get outta hse coz she's broke.. but can't she just go out for a walk or something? nope.. y? coz a trip out will coz her twelve fucking bucks.. n public buses to her take forever so she rather not if cab is not avail.. tis world is just fill w all kinds of pple.. i can't even c myself taking cab (got some super training fr mom at young age n now its in my blood) even when i'm carrying loads, running late, wee hrs in the morn'.. call it stingy.. call it watever.. ya.. not as if i'm poor or anything.. but i just find it damn difficult to spent money on cab when the other public transport is readily available.. puhh.. changing for the better..!? or izzit worse?!

Summary of MY TRIP
Slept.. Stoned.. Slacked..

11 Dec 2002(wed), 2000hrs - MRT Aljunied Stn -> Kranji Stn(S'pore), trnsfr Bus170 Kranji Stn -> Larkin(JB) ::S$2.50

11 Dec 2002(wed), 2230hrs - VIP Bus(25 seater type) JB -> Puduraya(KL) ::RM20 (@S$0.465)
-kenna cheated.. was told they have bus anytime fr KL to HY..
wasted 1 nite in KL

12 Dec 2002(thu), 0930hrs - VIP Bus KL -> Hat Yai ::RM40
-missed the 1800hrs bus to bangkok coz full

12 Dec 2002(thu), 1900hrs(Thai time, 1hr behind) - Bus(supercramp type) Hat Yai -> Bangkok ::Baht 650 (@S$0.041)
-bus left late at dunno 2000hrs or 2100hrs.. dunno y also.. waiting to fill the bus mayb..
-stayed in bangkok for 2nites

15 Dec 2002(sun), 1445hrs(Thai time) - Train Bangkok -> Hat Yai ::Baht1334
-took train 37.. 1st-Class Air-Con Day/Night Coach
-stayed in hat yai for 1nite

17 Dec 2002(tue), 1300hrs(Thai time) - Mini Van Hat Yai -> Songkhla ::Baht20
-stayed in songkhla for 1nite

18 Dec 2002(wed), 1400hrs(Thai time) - Mini Van Songkhla -> Hat Yai ::Baht20
-stayed in hat yai for another 1nite

19 Dec 2002(thu), 1000hrs(Thai time) - VIP Bus Hat Yai -> KL ::Baht350
-stayed in kl for 1nite

21 Dec 2002(sat), 0015hrs - VIP Bus KL -> S'pore ::RM25
-bus din come.. took another bus which left at 0115hrs

21 Dec 2002(sat), 0730hrs - Taxi Beach Rd -> Home ::S$7

sigh.. braided hair is only a wk n its super duper messy now.. wonder if i shd re-braid it myself..

Kuala Lumpur
was in KL yest.. ermm.. wat did i do there.. oh ya.. i fell while walking on a straight, flat, even ground in front of the petronas twin towers.. (nope.. i wasn't looking at it.. i was back facing it n concentrating on walking..) can u imagine.. shit.. am i just getting fat n clumsy.. n wat did i do next.. dropped my bf's new digi cam.. shit mann.. electronic stuffs always die in my hand.. (as if i haven dropped enuff of my stuffs..dropped my new discman in the first wk i bought.. so hard that the remote ctrl screen broke.. then my recorder.. think its just a mth or two.. dropped it n have to send it for repair coz the playback became too soft to b heard.. fuck!)

well did some shopping at Suria KLCC.. actually wanted to go up the skybridge.. first went there at 1.30pm.. then they were closed for afternoon prayers.. so left.. went back abt 4pm.. queued.. just to realised we need to get tics first.. so the lady told us.. "u have to go blar blar blar to get your tics first.. BUT there is no more tics for today.." WTF!.. then still say so much.. just tell us no more tics!

took a midnight bus bac.. almost din get it.. waited for abt an hr n the bus din come.. check w the other bus drivers.. then only managed to get the last seats of the other bus of the same co. bac.. sigh.. cock up mann.. well.. THIS IS MY ROAD TRIP.. back in s'pore again.. wat to do now??!!

Mis-Comm Incidents
all the language barrier.. wanna buy something.. dunno how to ask how much each.. worst is u buy fr all the on-the-move hawker.. they can't even tell u its ten baht or twenty baht.. or wat.. all is just point point.. take out money.. point point.. show fingers.. n its still screw up.. because of that.. had totally fried quill eggs instead of supposingly sunny-side-up done.. had T-h-r-e-e eggs instead of one tis morn.. n at times when u pt pt to the fellow.. but just to realised that they speak chinese or english.. my hokkien put to use tis afternoon =) they can speak hokkien.. feels great to b able to finally understand n communicate w them.. haha.. just lotsa stupid stuff..

Songkhla
went to a nearby town yest at 1pm (just 1 hr away).. stayed there 1 night.. nothing much too.. walk ard bought some rd side food.. a 4kg watermelon @15baht/kg (abt S$2.40) n 1 kg of mango @35baht/kg (abt S$1.60).. finished e watermelon that night.. half each.. haha.. took real long abt 1+ hr.. but we managed anyway.. both ended up with big round tummies.. went to check out the famous Golden Mermaid statue in the morning.. caught in the rain halfway there.. took a shelter.. but was all soaked already.. braved the rain later on just to have a pic with the mermaid.. but.. .. .. just disappointing.. small, discolored.. just kenna fake by pictures, posters n postcards of it, as usual..

guess that's all in the town.. headed back to hat yai in the afternoon..

Hat Yai Again..
went for a movie - Die Another Day (James Bond) only 90baht (abt S$3.60).. hehe.. cheap.. so here now blogging.. after the movie.. think nothing much for the nite too.. heading down to KL tomo.. last stop of my trip.. (18 Dec 2002, Hat Yai time 2130hr)

Hat Yai
back in hat yai.. train ride is pretty cool.. slow thou.. 17hrs.. reached at 16 Dec 2002, Hat Yai time 0815hr.. bored again on the train. nothing to do.. no scenery to c coz its dark.. now i'm bored again.. chatting w ppl on icq.. wat kinda holi is tis.. weird.. just getaway.. hee.. gd enuff.. (16 Dec 2002, Hat Yai time 1315hr)

Last nite in Bangkok..
in bangkok for abt 2 days.. nvr did much.. walk ard abit.. (had my hair braided finally =).. sigh but messy already.. wonder how long it can last..) met up with my old secondary schoolmate.. feels weird.. things pretty cock up.. had so much trouble just to get her.. fix a place to meet.. .. did some shopping at the wkend mkt.. .. guess i'm nvr really into shopping places.. nvr seems to b able to get much things..
time pass fast here.. yet still seemed to b looming in post-exam blues.. mayb wasn't even prepared for the trip.. just a getaway.. free from some things.. just some things.. that cldn't n doesn't bother here..
anyway i'll b on the move again tomo.. back down to hat yai.. (but tis time i got myself a 1st-class train ticket.. heehee.. self-pamper..) (15 Dec 2002, Bangkok time 0100hr)..

Friday the 13th
wat?! stay home wait for terrioist to strike.. duh.. wat else can pple think of!?

that's it
flunk my exam.. one n only.. no time to tink abt it.. started on my trip rightaway (11 Dec 2002, S'pore time 2000hr).. 1hr to JB.. 5hrs to KL.. 9hrs to hat yai.. 13hrs.. finally at bangkok (13 Dec 2002, Bangkok time 1000hr).. bored thruout the bus ride.. now.. just neck ache.. argh..

9 hrs left..
still not pack.. still not prepared for my paper.. but i'm leaving anyway.. tonite.. =)

Another Time!..
can't they just leave mi alone!!! now i pigged out just becoz i'm pissed.. n i'm gonna get my double chin real soon.. argghh..
i'm gonna leave.. 1 more day.. i'm outta tis place..

was flossing my teeth.. bleed as usual.. sight n smell of blood just make mi feel better.. hmm.. y..?! i dunno.. mayb its just a sign to show that u're stil alive?! mayb i'm just losing it.. who cares..

DAMN
all becoz of the stoopif fucking money n other stuffs issues.. i wasted 2hr doing nothing.. really nothing..

Are you hopelessly depressed or blissfully happy? (versio 2.0)
brought to you by Quizilla

c! its marnee again!!!
FUCK!! Fucking CB.. LJ .. watever.. l knew it.. its just money money money again!!! Crude?! I dun have to b refine, i dun have to b educated wat ! ! afterall its just whether u have marnee anot!! . . . i noe wat u're thinking.. n i'm just gonna do it.. just becos u Cared! fuck.. i'm just gonna screwup my life as much as i wan.. i dun need marnee!!.... fucking hell .. e only thing now i lack of is guts to take my own life... so somebody do mi a favour n kill mi.! ... marnee world rite.!.?.! k.. just ask for my atm pin b4 u kill me. Not much but at least u're not doing it for free!! fuck... *ponders* or do i really need e marnee... Nah... there r always ways to do it w/o maaarnnnneeeee...............

now i can forget abt studying.. DAMN FUCKING PISSED!!!!!

panickish
exactly 24 hr left.. now i'm reeally panicking.. *panick.. panick..* can't study.. can't work.. wanna get ready for my trip.. no mood.. coz i haven study.. arghh.. entangled in a nvr-ending circle. again.. tomo's 3hr will determine my half yr's worth.. so no sense.. ... ... .. ... ... .. .. .. hate it..

$$
money.. money.. Marnee.. its all abt money! its always abt marnee.. just leave mi alone..

stray plants survive the best..!

i'm dying ..

so practical..
arrghh.. just leave them alone!.. make mi do all sorts of funny things.. again n again.. dun u realised its damn thick-skin.. just simple straight fw stuffs.. can't u just do it urself.. wat..?! u'r gonna die if that person doesn't exist.. fuck! do it urself.. y have to depend on others... *wanna-puke-disgusted* hate human relationship.. all they think abt is making use of each other.. put it nicely.. its network.. strip it all off.. its still making use of each other..

trying
the more i tried.. the more detached i get.. e lesser feel left..

can't relate..
feeling detached again n again.. detached n more detached.. yet can't feel..

y..y..y..
y does everybody.. k not everybody but so many ppl seemed to give mi that i'm so envy with the-material-things-u-have-in-life..(they all dun belong to mi anyway.. n i hate them all..) crap.. these pple have not experience the price to pay for all these.. or m i not in a position to comment on them too?! ya.. mayb not.. i envy them too.. that's life izn't it..

Hanging On
wasted few hundred bucks again.. (ok 2nd time.. last time..) everything is just so messed up.. everybody ask mi to try.. i wld have ask mi to try too.. but mi tell i not to.. perhaps avoiding is just much easier -- no hope=no disappointment.. perhaps its just not abt trying anymore -- i need to noe my stuffs.. i really wonder the whole idea of it.. it doesn't prove anything.. it doesn't show that u noe ur stuffs..
anyway.. 1½ more yrs.. MAX 2 yrs.. i need to hang on.. i'm gonna hang on.. i'm hanging on.. .. .. 5yrs.. NOT MORE.. no time for more..!

Quote of the Day:
"It is the greatest of all mistakes to do nothing because you can only do a little. Do what you can." --Sidney Smith